Just Being There

This world is full of light. In some sense, we are all conglomerations of light, gathered by plants, consumed by animals, and concentrated into this physical mass of muscle, bones, and brain matter that I call my human existence. This past weekend was the celebration of my corporeal anniversary marking 32 years of not dying. To celebrate, the full moon was arranged. I also ordered a winter storm to blow through Tahoe and dump a foot and a half of snow, just for me.

I led a small contingency of the Clausen Clan 5 miles out and 1,500 ft. up to a backcountry hut in the Sierra Mountains. Endorphins where absolutely necessary to propel us up the final 2 mile slog up Pole Creek to the Bradley Hut. Built in 1997, it is a lot less rustic than the other huts that I have stayed at in the Sierras.

Upon arrival we met doctors and emergency technicians chasing their powder addictions. We skinned up just before dark and slew some powder before retiring to our dinner packets. I went a little powder crazy and hogged some of the lower slopes after snow stability had been established higher up on the mountain. I worry that jealousy might morph into grudges, but someone has to go first, and I don’t like waiting around.

As we slept, the moon shone. The clouds opened up and let fall light fluffy snow that refracted the light from the moon into a diffuse illumination of a pale blue-white wonderland all night long.

I never sleep well when the snow is falling and I always crawl out of my sleeping bag before the sun shows itself. Is it excitement? Anticipation? Or am I energized by the falling snow? A solar panel draws energy form the sun and turns it into electricity. Perhaps I draw energy from the falling snow and turn it into vivid dreams of powder lips and lines. Pure flight. But I am not asleep. I have awoken and am on the top of a mountain, getting ready to drop a chute into a powder field.

It’s just being here. Moving through this winter wonderland and watching the snow change. Listening to the bombs explode at a resort nearby, I notice that the snow is more powdery and fluffy at 7am than it has ever been for me at 9am when they open the lifts at a resort. For a moment I feel an overwhelming sense of gratitude, an expansion of my self, a diffusion of my being into the crystalline mixture of frozen water crystals and crisp air. My light and the light from the sun refract and coalesce and the imagination settles softly into a new and wonderful reality.

This new reality follows me down the mountain. I feel altered, but I know that it is my perception of the world around me that has changed.


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One Response to “Just Being There”

  1. Jakefilm Says:

    good stuff man, now you just need to make it a daily habit.
    -miss you dude, need to board soon!


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